So i have been committed to not restricting my calories for a year now to try & heal my metabolism after years of ed. I have been on this life style for 6month and have been eating between 2500 & 3000 cals a day, switching between raw till 4 & fully raw. I am heavier then iv ever been & i find that really tough.
three days ago i started restricting again & i have flipped right back into that mind frame of counting calories & working out when i will be thin again.
I don't know what to do, feeling worried, i guess i'm posting here because a part of me doesnt want to keep restricting & i do believe in this life style, i guess i got sick of being this size & sick of people around me putting down the way i eat.
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I came back to eating 2500+ cals the day I posted this so I was only restricting for two & a half days, hopefully it won't set me back to much.
I'm not sure exactly what came over me but I sure am happy to to be back. I know this way of eating is inline with my inner world.
I had an argument last night with my closest friend when he made a comment about me needing more variety in my diet & I told him that he is never aloud to criticize the way I eat, he told me that I am too sensitive around my diet & then told me not to ever talk with him about it again. I do feel isolated a bit on this lifestyle, but nothing is going to nock me off my path again.
Thanx again for the support people.
Xoxo
I met a girl yesterday. I had been talking on line with here for several months. My initial hunch was correct. She had anorexia and looked like an 80 year old bag of bones. She is 22. Brittle hair, no joy in her eyes and pallor, dry skin.
If she put on 25kg, she would be pretty good looking I told her. Anorexia is a mental disease. Most people are in such a psychosis its hard to communicate to them. Even face to face.
Thats why myself and Freelee put so much effort into youtube and being as transparent about our weight and diet as possible. To give people REAL life examples longterm. If people have any doubts, just look at us. We are walking our talk and documenting it frequently on youtube.
Fat loves attention, the more you cry about it the more fat will sit on your waist and listen.
90% carbs, 10% fat, 0% thought given to protein.
No fatty rice or almond milk drinks.
No avocados or olive oil.
No chocolate vegan muffin tops.
Salt is like a bad dream that lasts for days & in said dream you are twice your weight...nuff said.
Don't try to lose weight, try to make the best decisions you can throughout the day.